13x13 Torn and Flaky Honesty. Where is Jesus in this Mess?

Emmalee Powell
Torn and Flaky
13x13 panel
Oil and mixed media
2019
22k gold leaf frame
 
What is so carefully hidden,
is coming through for all to see
This is honesty.
This is Me.
 
Context:
In case you thought I was perfect because I paint Jesus.... I’m not the best person or parent. I have a limited tolerance for small children. It’s hard to feel so powerless. The sounds of crying grates on my nerves when my nerves are already fried. Although these are paintings of Jesus they are paintings of me expressing my feelings when I’m trying to cope while feeling tattered and torn. I’m trying to be perfect but imperfection keeps coming through.
 
The process:
This painting was painted over a realistic portrait study.